On my birthday....

Was in form 4, looking ten years back... and wow how time flies...
First and foremost, I'd like to thank all the well wishers and may the coming years be great to all of you as well. Secondly, my love to mummy and bapa. Thank you for the endless hours of both your love and care that made me the person I am today. Praise be to the Almighty God, may He look upon both of you with much care as how I've been shown growing up.

Its always been my ritual on the eve of my birthday, just before sleeping, to take some time and ponder the journey that has been. This year, I tried to recollect the memories from my secondary school years and I believe it was in form 4 that I finally decided to study Mechatronics engineering. Why some might ask? Well, that is a story for another day. The fact that I mention this particular story is to relate what I was thinking about last night.

For some unknown reason, I was optimistic back then, that I would've started working at the age of 23 and at the age of 26 which I am right now, I would have held a much greater post and earned at least 5 to 6k per month. Though some might think, the possibility of me earning that much in such short time is like finding a needle in a hay stack, I knew somehow that I have what it takes to make that dream possible. Returning to the present, it saddens me a little that I'm neither earning 5 to 6k nor have I even started working. Truth is, its not the figure nor the years that I spent to study that really troubles me but rather the guilt of not being able to be there in Malaysia to help out my family especially during these really trying times. (Have you ever heard of the term 'menangis di mata orang nampak, menangis di hati siapa tahu?'. Well thats exactly how I'm feeling on my 26th birthday.)

But I guess thats life in a nutshell. If you get your hopes up to high, it'll come crashing down and get stepped upon. But who cares really? Why do you even expect people to understand how you feel? Some people might but what can they do really? After 25 years living on this so called earth, I vote the term, no one's an island unusable because deep inside, everyone's an island. We choose not to believe it but the term helping others really doesn't exist does it? You and you alone will be first in the priority hierachy calculations. But thats normal I guess. We are all human after all.

So Mooney, Happy 26th birthday and congratulations... because we are all human after all...




Munawwir Khan Yusoff Khan