Yesterday I was turning in my bed trying to get some sleep but I couldn't and so I started to let my mind wonder as usual. I tried to think back to the time when I was in Intec and to tell you the truth, I was in love with a girl. I need not mention her name here but to those dear to me, they would know her. I've smiled with her and shared lots of memorable conversations. She knows this too. The thing that she doesn't know is that I've cried for her and lord knows how I've cried. Those sleepless night when I felt lost and incomplete as she turned her back for someone else.
Friends, oh my dear friends. I know how all of you told me that I deserve better but being in my position I tried. I really tried but she completed me. I was then reminded of the story of the perfect heart...
An old man was walking in a crowded place one day, and he heard a young man boasting about having the perfect heart. He asked him how he concluded that he has a perfect heart. Proudly the man took out his heart and showed the old man. It was untainted with the perfect figure and yet the old man denied that he had the perfect heart. He then took out his heart and showed it to the young man. His heart was scared with dislocated parts being torn out and sewed back on while few of the wounded parts are left uncured. He told the young man, through his life his he had given part of his heart to the ones he loved. Some he told the young man, loved him back and gave part of their hearts to them while some don't. He then said, part of his heart still hurts when he gave these few whom he loved but never loved him back. As he stood up, he told the young man, the prefect heart is not his but the old man's. Looking deep into his eyes, the old man then continued by saying, it's better to love someone and get hurt for him or her rather than not knowing...
I guess, I did follow the old man's wisdom but I wonder, if there was a second chance knocking on his door, would the old man give part of his heart again to those he had once loved but not loved in return? A second chance is knocking on my door and I'm still seeking how to answer before unlocking my door. Would you?
8 comments:
u dont need to get the perfectness in u but look on happiness.if u dont give the second chance to yourself, then for how long can you bare the pain? sometimes a chance might be a test from GOd, and sometimes it could also be a GIFT from Him :) how can you know which one is a gift if u stop trying? ;)
Being hurt and vulnerable is part of growing up. When you are accepting love, you have to feel it. That is the fun part.
If you are afraid to be vulnerable and hurt, maybe you are not ready to grow up.
Thank you for the support. Ima, first of all it's not that I'm denying it or pushing it away, it's just that I feel that I might need some time to think matters over. As u said it, if it's a gift, it's not unwrapping the gift that is more intriguing, it's the anticipation. And to answer fr3ak, trust me, I understand what you mean. If I don't let my heart fly as high, knowing the risk that it might fall and be broken into pieces again, I would never get to enjoy the euphoric view from above. As I said before, I think I might let time decide of it's ending. You can't force love now can you?? =)
I believe everyone deserves a second chance but at the end of the day its all about whether or not she or he deserves to have the second chance to begin with... that is a question that you yourself have to answer alone... no one can show you the way and tell you what to do... what they could do is only tell you what they could do when they are in your position... That's what make living as a human being so special... we have at the end of the day our own thoughts and decisions... That is a path that we all have to trudge on our own... I hope you make the right decision... But bear in mind, is she or he the one that could make you happy...? Do you feel that she deserves you...? do you feel comfortable with him or her...? in short.... is she the one..?
its so gay.haha no seriously id say just follow ur heart.Would the prospect of being hurt again bearable.Ur heart knows it best.gay
hmm so this is where u got ur sahams up?haha
its like xenomorph said... really muni...is it he or she?hehe
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