In a couple of minutes I will soon be 24. How do I feel some might ask? Well to tell you half the truth I feel nothing in particular. Tomorrow would just be some other day. By the way, before I continue on writing, Mami, just want you to know, I love you with my whole heart and thanx for giving birth to me and caring for me and to my late father I love you so very much and I can never forget everything that you have taught and done for me. Some might brag about how wonderful their parents are but in all sincerity, I can never ask for two better people in my whole damn life to be my parents and I solemnly swear that I shall always uphold both your names and make both of you really proud. The world will know of the two most wonderful people in my life, Yusoff Khan Ibrahim Khan and Hashimah Abd Karim. I dedicate this special thanx on my birthday for the both of you.
Dear readers you may wipe away those tears now. If you don't have any on you, well maybe you just don't know me just yet. Anyhow, as I was saying, I would soon turn a new leaf. I told you bout the half truth and now let me tell you the other half. It's always been two or three days just before my birthday that I can't sleep. It's not that I suffer for insomnia or anything but it's only during the nights that I'm able to have a quiet time and ponder of my future. Yeah I know it sounds crazy and all, but quietly now, without shouting it out loud (well if you really have to than go ahead and scream to the depths of hell for all I care) ask yourself, where would you be in 10 years time? Pause....
Every milestone that I encounter, I always keep on repeating this question to myself. I still remember my last birthday and the answer to it have never changed since. I see myself in ten years time to be working with a loving wife by my side and a couple of children. Life's funny that way don't you think? You stop and think of the future yet you never realise the every passing moment that is flashing right before you. At the end of it, you'll find yourself to already be in the future. Example, when I begin my bachelor degree here in Germany, I thought that it would be forever and yet now I'm finding myself to be at the last turn just before the checked flag. Surely most of you have encountered it before and some might even tell others of their own experience. (But people please don't get to obssesed with telling others how you feel. It's just annoying. If you don't trust me then tell me seriously how you feel right now while I'm pouring all this emotions to you? =P)
There is a Hallmark saying that's rather intresting (as I found it to be) which is, life begins at forty. So if life really begins at forty, then what are we doin here? Why do we feel happiness and pain? Anger and sorrow? Why do we care for people yet hate some? 40... Well if that is the truth than I guess I still have 16 years to enjoy my life in fantasy. Stop. Before you start to comment sarcastically on my nonesense, I understand the true meaning behind Hallmark's proverb. It is more of a gentle reminder to those out there who are sensitive of their age, life is never about numbers. Life is about experience, love, knowledge and lots more.
Last week for example, I called up my mom to keep her up to date on my exams, and hearing me feeling so down, she reminded me that failing is never the end of my life. Why does something so simple is yet so hard to grasp? I for one am getting older and with time, I hope that I can truly fully comprehend her words. I've experienced lots of things and feelings that I never thought I had. I learned a whole lot from life itself which no text book can teach. I've gained lots of friends in my 24 years and I've seen some, who are dearest to me, return to the Almighty.
Beloved readers, family and friends. Up till now, I've managed to learn a few important things in life and it's all thanks to you. I might be down and some idiot might kick me where the sun don't shine for all I know as I'm tied to the bottom, I can always be rest assured that I will always be back on my feet and again on top as long as I am still able. I'll never know how and I'll never know when but one thing is for sure, because I'm getting wiser every single day, the ones out there, who has been kicking me while I'm down, I'm coming to get you. =P
Cheerios and peace out.
p.s Thanx for the wishes (esp Miss Sazlina Chin yang wish 30 minit awal. Kau yang suruh letak nama kau kan? Hehehe) and to my frens who are having a birthday soon, I would also like to wish you a happy getting one year older day. =P
2 comments:
haha slambe ckp aku suh letak. padehal die yg nak letak name aku.nak tompang glemer aku la tuh! poodahh!! nway epi besday la bro koli! smoge pjg umur murah rejeki jadi anak soleh rajin mengaji muqaddam semayang mesjid. smoge tercapai hajat beristerikan wanita cantekk. may u hav many more years filled with joy laughter n cheers! aku da nak balek mesia nex month. rindu2 lah aku, jangan lupe besday aku 23/4. pos adiah kat umah aku. alamak pjg gile cukup tuk satu entry baru lam blog. ok la cau sin can cekidaut!
Hak elen. Baru smalam kau suruh mention nama kau. Nganganga. Anyway thanx for the wishes. Nnt aku hantar kad jemputan kat kau ngan raf. Waktu tu jgn lupa bawak anak2 ko skali. Baru meriah sikit. =P
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