2009 Here we go Again....

It's around 6.20pm here in Germany and in a couple of hours, 2008 would be gone. Oh well, time and tide don't wait for anyone. Though this might be true, it doesn't hurt for one to stop and ponder for a moment, to reflect on the past. What we've been through these past years, our goals and decisions or in short, our life up to this moment.

When I look back at the year 2008, I'm utterly surprised that I'm really happy. In my whole life, the year 2008 is, and soon would be was, the year that I actually mature in almost every aspect. I achieved my goals of finishing my bachelor's degree in Germany (well so to speak), I learned the true meaning of friendship, I laughed and I cried, but most of all, I gained new faith and hope in people.

I remembered starting the year with a peak at the chinese zodiac (though I'm not a believer), while pondering what will happen to me at the same time next year. Of course back then I was still struggling with my bachelor and there was a time when I fell in love with someone. Those days were gone but with such sacrifice, I gained valuable lessons. Life and love are both the same. A great example for me was finishing my studies and I knew that it was something that I truly believe in. It was worth fighting for. So is love. Trouble with love is, you have to find the right one to be fighting for and I was blinded from this truth all my life. I thought, fighting for the wrong one would make that person fall for me, when actually, I should've been seeking and fighting for someone else.

Failing was also once a big concern. Afraid of failing and falling to rock bottom... I finally understood that whatever happens, happens for a reason. Learn to be a little less pessimistic and a little more optimistic. There will always be something to laugh at during the miseries if we just stop a while to alm ourselves down.

Another thing that I surely find to be true is, help yourself first before helping others and learn to voice out your mind. Before, it was hard for me to tell people what I really feel for I worry to much that it would offend them. I know that one needs to be polite and courteous but at times, politeness and courtesy just doesn't resolve the ache inside. Hell in worst scenarios, one could actually suffer from depression and tends to resolve it with suicide. Maybe what I'm trying to say here is, life's too short to make everyone happy. It's better that I be happy and with hope others would also cherish the happiness. For those who don't, well maybe we're not meant to be as compatible as we think we should be.

All in all, I love myself for what I've grown into since the beginning of 2008 and hopefully, I will continue to grow in the same path. And thus my resolution for 2009 would be, to live life to the fullest and be as happy as I can at all times.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL and cheerios...

Munawwir Khan Yusoff Khan

p.s Life is worth living... think about that...